Here we go again

Today, marks the day of when all our preparation begins for our 2nd IVF. I started my period on the day of mine and my husband's 5th anniversary. Ironic? Maybe. Good sign? I think so. Took a trip into the lab today where they proceeded to take about 15-20 tubes of blood work, thought I might faint since I had to be fasting for it, but I didn't. Good sign #2. Then walked over to the pharmacy to pick up my birth control I'll be taking this month so the doc can take control of my cycle. My poor little ovaries, suppressed one month and the next month is expected to make 10-20 eggs...so not natural. I choose to take Yaz, because I've been on it before and it makes me the least crazy out of any other BC I've tried. Don't get me wrong, I'll still be nuts on it, but not totally, completely, lose my mind crazy - like I have been on some other types. Doesn't seem it so counterproductive to have to go on birth control for a fertility cycle? It does to me, always has, but I understand why the doctors need to do it that way.

Our next move in prep for IVF is a water ultrasound test and a test transfer. It's been a little over a year since my laparoscopy surgery so the doc wants to do this test to make sure my uterus is still looking beautiful and perfect. It's not gonna be fun though. This is what they do...they stick a catheter up there, blow up a little balloon in your uterus and then shoot some water around in there. It's suppose to wash out anything that might be in there and separate your uterine walls so they can see if there is anything that isn't suppose to be there. Yesterday the IVF nurse says, "You might cramp a little but it won't be too bad". Sure, sure lady...I've done this before and I've done other tests similar and let me tell you it is painful. Don't try to sugar coat it, just tell me the truth so I know what to expect. She's probably never had it done, most women don't have to do stuff like this, so she wouldn't really know what it feels like. I guess I can't blame her :) But I need someone to blame for pain when I get it done. Haha, jk.

Unless you've been through IVF, you wouldn't realize how much effort and sacrifice it takes to do this process. It's tough, but I'm hoping it'll all be worth it. It's like I tell my friends and fam when I talk to them about it...I'd do pretty much about anything at this point if I could just have children. A balloon in my uterus is NO BIG DEAL if it helps me have children.

Here we go again...